Izzy S.O's "Silly Me" Is a Sonic Rampage Through Adolescence

True to OnesToWatch's desire to be way ahead of good music, occasionally we’ll gravitate to an artist immediately – sometimes even months before their release. Obviously we are spoiled to live with music way before its official uploads, but even more so when we come across a debut project like ‘Silly Me'. This EP by Izzy S.O is a sonic rampage through a messy room of emotions, especially the confusing ones of adolescence. Said better by the artist herself: “'The 'Silly Me' EP sums up my emotions from leaving school at 16 to now - it’s been a whirlwind but I finally feel like life is making a bit more sense. That’s why it was important to me that the last single of the EP was Growing Pains. Growing pains was the lesson out of all the emotion and chaos, it’s finally facing myself without any attachments or distractions.” Wanting to dive into the deep end of this brilliantly angsty EP, we asked the UK based artist via the webs to speak to each track, results below: 

Silly Me

"Silly Me" was written when I was in the early stages of a break up when emotions were on overdrive and it was easier to feel angry than to feel sad about losing someone that I not only loved but also shared an amazing friendship with. 

Silly me reflects on all the moments in that relationship where I wasn’t being honest about how certain things were making me feel. The main story is pinpointing a specific moment when I was hurt by how my boyfriend at the time was acting and how it felt like old behaviors that I thought had been left in the past were resurfacing and the fear that comes with realizing that we might just stay stuck in this cycle. One of the main lines in the song is about going ‘ round in circles’ ; this is the nature of any relationship with someone who has past or present issues with addiction. 

"Silly Me" is actually also meant to be quite funny because it proves how ridiculous your emotions can end up being when you store them up and express them later instead of the more balanced emotions that surface moment to moment. Don’t lose yourself trying to please someone you love whether that is a friend, partner or a family member. You’re not helping them if you’re not being real and you’ll only cause more pain further down the line. 

Without You I Don’t Like Sundays

I started writing ‘Without You I Don’t Like Sundays’ when I was walking around London on my own on a Sunday, in the early stages of a break up. I was walking around feeling a bit lost and so I found myself walking to different places that made me feel safe because I’d had a nice memory there with someone I cared about.

 The song is about piecing your life together after a big change, it’s about the fear that rises up when you finally have to sit with yourself. It’s reminding yourself that you aren’t just a sum up of the people in your life and that you can just walk around on a Sunday, buy a nice book under the tunnel on Southbank and drink coffee in a coffee shop on your own. You can create your own safety. 

Would We Make It 

‘Would We Make It’ is about the feeling when you know a relationship is over but you still love and care about the person a lot and you start to question whether if it wasn’t for all the complications that life can sometimes bring - ‘would we make it’. 

It’s also about that bigger feeling of how in general life can get messy and complicated but if you sat for a moment human to human I think we could see past the things that can sometimes feel so big and so important. It’s about trying to have one last real conversation with someone you love. Having a moment to just be with each other and really see each other, the line ‘ will you hold my hand for a second please’ is trying to make things more simple and slow everything down, having a moment to really be with each other before it ends. 

Don’t let the chaos of life affect the relationships with the people you love too much because if you only had one more day with them most of the rubbish we think we care about wouldn’t matter. 

Growing Pains

I started writing ‘Growing Pains’ at 2am in a hotel room in Copenhagen. I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep so tried to meditate and then a huge wave of emotion hit me and it felt like I was facing myself properly for the first time since going through a break up. It was finally admitting to myself all the ways I hadn't been real in the relationship and how that lack of honesty ended up making me hurt someone I loved. 

But also it’s not a song about a break up - it’s a song about growing up and the fear that can come with that. It’s letting go of the pressure I had put on myself since I was sixteen - it was really facing myself without the other attachments - friendships, relationships, my career.

Do I Make You Feel Alive Yet

 The message I want people to take away from ‘Do I Make You Feel Alive Yet’ is about owning your sexuality - I grew up feeling an element of shame around sex and promiscuity, I felt a real pressure to be perfect and I was sold the narrative that ‘ giving myself away’ to boys would make me less than that. Breaking free of the limitations that that mindset had put on me was a very important step for me and marked another milestone in my journey towards adulthood.